Thursday, 02 October 2008

• Dear God

  Dear God:

  I want to be at peace with my self in knowing that this man will love my son as his own and that he has no regrets in wanting to be part of my family.  I need to know that the fears that I have everyday are there to help with the decisions I make when it comes to whether I should marry this individual or not.  I have a lot of doubt about a lot of things , but my love for him is not one I question.  I feel overwhelmed at times becasue I feel as though you have placed him in my life, but then I also feel a great sadness that he is not the one.  My heart longs for the company of another soul to share my life..... I see him as being the one when he is not.  Tell me am I crazy or just crazy in love.  I can see now why to "Love one another" is one of your commandments.  LOVE is such a powerful emotion that can cause one to do almost anything and feel almost anything.  I have come to know the power of your love through this man.  But we are only human.  Love somtimes surpasses our understanding....and confuse it with LUST about the desires of the heart and the desires of the soul.  Lust of the flesh is  not a part of my life right now..  we have to become emotionally connected and even though I hate what the distance is doing  to us... I welcome it.  It keeps my priorites in order and it keeps me sane. Thus I will not confuse the two L's

  So I come to you God, as your child in need.  Wanting all the desires of my heart.... because you said that am your child... and that I shall have these things.   I ask Your guidence in making the right decisions in the next couple of months.  Open my eys to the deception, if there is any.  Revel to me the true concept of love.  Fill his heart with a passion that he longs for... that he has found in you.  Than  he will be able to open his heart to receive Love as well as give Love in return.

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