It has been about two weeks since I last seen my BF. Everytime I see him it seems as if the distance has caused my heart to grow a little colder toward him. Well not colder..wrong choice of words... but I can feel the distance. I will just say that. I think the longer we are apart the more I prepare my heart for a breakup. I know that I have no plans on doing that and neither does he but you never know what road life will take. I hate to say that we are growing apart but it does feel that way. I have tried to tell him this on many occasions but It just never seems to come out right. His feelings have they changed? I do not know. I thought that it was just in my mind but it is not. I have to do a lot of soul searching to figure this one out. I know that I wrote in my xanga blog that some things are just to personal to write about and I think that this is one of those times. I have tried to explain but I guess no one would really understand without me giving full details, which I will never do. I love blogging but not to that extent. ..Like I said on xanga there are just some things that you have to keep to your self. There are just some things that are just .....my business.
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I know what you mean. I don't get too personal with my life on here. I have another blogging site that i vent out on, but I blog to vent what i can't say.. what i believe loved ones just won't understand. Long distance relationships are tough. Most people agree and say that they cannot work. The distance does complicate everything because you do not know what to think or believe. It isn't as easy before because he isn't just a click away. I feel like when he's far away from me, I don't want to interfere in his life so i try to give space, but not knowing what's going on just tears you down. You have to be strong, talk to him... don't just settle. He's probably feeling the same way. I really hope everything turns out for the best. Take it easy.
I, too, use xanga and datingish for venting. I have always been that person who everyone vents to and leans on but I have never had a person on which to lean. So I don't talk about things. I don't get personal on here either but it still helps.
I understand what you're feeling. I felt the same way with my ex-boyfriend and he lived 20 minutes away. I started feeling a void was between us. The best I can tell you to do is just talk to him. Easier said than done, I know, especially for me. Good luck, my dear.
That is what happened with a boyfriend I had....he felt it too but unlike me wasn't willing to wait it out until it got better- I got dumped 5 days before prom.
hey hey, that's what i felt lately. I feel that me and my bf have grown so apart. Being far away from him is hard and it's different when you see the person. When we talk on the phone, we sometimes fight. And he's too irritable and just shut me off when he's mad. Until I told myself, this isn't going to work anymore. It's not harmonious anymore. I'm tired of it. Hey, you're not alone.
This described my last relationship perfectly. My GF and I went to different colleges and were separated by 2 hours. We'd be lucky to see each other a few days in a month. That coldness & growing apart you describe is exactly what I would feel, and it almost felt like we had to take the first day we were together after a long while to get "reacquainted" with one another and warm up to the idea that we were indeed dating. She kind of distanced herself, like I would have to "earn" a kiss after it felt less awkward. Well to make a long story short, she stopped liking me and dumped me like a month ago after 3.5 years of dating.
I understand not wanting all your biz on here if you know people. Lucky for me, this is my "secret" blog, so I can write with no filter.